Wow. Wow. Wow. Alright.
My last post was in november. That was a long time ago.
A lot has happened since then. I feel like saying “a lot”…doesn’t even begin to live up to what I’ve actually gone through.
One thing that I’ve learned in these…six months, is how to adapt. This time last year, heck, in November I remember telling myself “I don’t know what I’d do without her”, in referring to my best friend at the time. I was so bonded to her, our lives were so mingled. I imagined us being together forever. I always imagined being her everything, and then, in the blink of an eye I was her nothing.
It is hard to face the fact that you need someone more than they need you. It’s even harder to face the fact that you’ve always needed them in a different way than they needed you, and that they will never need you like that.
And you are heartbroken, and you feel like you will never be happy again, and you are positive that your entire life will go downhill from there…
and then, one day you don’t think about that person.
And then, you go two days without thinking about that person.
And then before you know it, you are living your life without a person you thought would be with you forever.
So, if any of you have ever experienced heartbreak, or are scared that you are too attached to someone, or have lost someone recently…
time heals everything. I still miss what we had, I still miss what I tricked myself into believing we could have, but I don’t feel the constant pain anymore, and that is a blessing.
In the end, I’m glad I experienced that pain, because it makes me feel more empathetic to others in the situation I was in, and because I no longer take my happiness for granted.
That’s all, for now.